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Stagnancy and Dysfunction due to Antipsychotics and the System

Age: 26–35  ·  Duration of use: 5+ years  ·  Current status: Yes, still taking
Symptoms: Sexual dysfunction, Cognitive impairment, Muscle/joint pain

In my case I needed psychiatric assistance: but not forever. The antipsychotic had reached its therapeutic benefit period but I was left without much information about the medication - no knowledge of side effects being a possibility, and not even told a diagnosis. I spent years on medicine yet resenting myself because I wasn't informed that it would cause sedation.

The levels of sedation and stiffness was extremely high, and I was in the world of academia at the time. I normally love academia but I wasn't flourishing like I used to and had no clue what was wrong with me - so I blamed myself. Imagine not being able to reach your potential in an area that almost defines your identity, that's what is was like. I scored so low - just passed - and I've not been able to hold my head up high in workplace conversations to speak confidently about subject matter for collaboration. I feel so much shame there.
I then stopped medication myself and experienced withdrawal symptoms, which led to me making unwise decisions (resigning from work) so long story short, was forced back onto them. That cycle of getting off and being forced back on has occurred multiple times, but I know now that it wasn't relapse but withdrawal. All those years I still knew something didn't add up, yet I was on the meds and still on it. I've finally come back to my first doctor who has agreed to eventually taper me off.

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