Symptoms: Akathisia, Brain zaps, Emotional blunting, Sexual dysfunction, Cognitive impairment, Insomnia, Depersonalization/Derealization, Suicidal ideation, Neuropathy, Severe anxiety/panic, GI disturbances, Psychotic episodes, Schizophrenia symptoms, CPTSD
It's a big one. NHS still refusing to treat me 7 years later, lost two businesses, can't use phones, fill out forms, all the things I built my 17 year career on. "I'd love to fill out that form for you but I'm busy hallucinating in a corner in my bedroom and will be for a day or so."
It was Mikhaila's original story about the dirty journalist attempting to do a hit piece on Jordan about 5 years ago that turned me on to it. Turns out I'm lucky in that I've got a murderous MH team here who already are on 3x notice from coroner for prevention of future deaths in the last 5 years (they've killed 3 that have gone through judicial review) who are actively attempting to ignore me to death, blocking all NHS secondary care service access. They have attempted to kill me but I'm still alive, just.
The Maudsley Centre supported my experience after I fought to get funding for a private second opinion, and have diagnosed me with psychotic symptoms as a side effect of an 'unknown substance', likely [the drug I was given]. The Maudsley Centre are applying for funding out of area to take me direct (UK NHS centre of excellence). Not common at all in the UK, due to written confirmation that the local health team "know Dan; we're not giving him blood tests or MRIs that you recommend, what are you looking for anyway? There's nothing wrong with him. That med is for schizophrenia anyway, we're not prescribing or supporting him. In fact, we're surprised you haven't given it to him yourself." To one of Britain's premier HIV neuropsychiatrists. So he's applying for funding.
Things are dark my friends. You still have access to a health system with money. Here, they pick and choose who lives. It's only because I'm insanely stubborn. I have all the data access requests to show not only did they dismiss me, they actively prevented me from receiving any support for the last 6 years whilst I fought, like a monster, to stay alive.
I know what she and her father are going through. I would just like to offer my support, and to say that through her talking about this 5 years ago, they've sustained one life so far at least. Well done and keep going, you both.