Symptoms: Akathisia, brain zaps, emotional blunting, sexual dysfunction, cognitive impairment, insomnia, depersonalization/derealization, suicidal ideation, muscle/joint pain, anhedonia, dyskinesia, GI disturbances
After being on an antipsychotic for 15 years, which already caused massive impulsivity, I was then placed on escitalopram for a few months without being fully informed that it caused suicidal tendencies.
In the early hours of January 13, 2025, after going strange and undergoing a period of dissociative and depersonalising suicidal thought, I walked to my local petrol station, bought fuel, poured it on myself, and set myself alight.
I was airlifted to a burns hospital where I spent 16 days in a coma and had to learn to eat, walk, and talk again.
Since then I have come off all psychiatric medications and I’m finishing off my degree and taking the psychiatric organisation to court, where it’s looking to be in excess of £900,000 in compensation.
“There is light at the end of the tunnel, just some tunnels are longer than others.” — Ada Adams