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Never Got a Chance

Age: 18–25  ·  Duration of use: 5+ years  ·  Current status: No, have stopped
Symptoms: Brain zaps, emotional blunting, sexual dysfunction, cognitive impairment, depersonalization/derealization, tinnitus, anhedonia

It’s hard for me to type a big long story like everyone else. I’ll keep this short and to the point.

I was twelve when I was put on Prozac. Never even given a chance. I’m not really a person so much as an animal, or a thing. I never developed a sexuality or a full range of emotions. I don’t know what romantic or sexual attraction is like. I don’t know what it’s like to enjoy friendship or relationships with others. I’m what some people might call a functional sociopath.

I’m 21 now. It’s been four years since I stopped, and there’s been no change. I’ve never had so much as an urge to be sexual or romantic towards anyone or anything. This is all I’ve ever known, so it’s not terrible. But sometimes I catch myself wondering if the world was meant to always feel this cold and far away.

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